February 26th

Well, still not doing a good job of updating this thing how I said I was.  Still, this thought went over my mind and I wanted to write it.  Every night, at the end of the day, I lay on the couch and snuggle with my husband.  While we lay there her rubs my back and plays his fingers on my spine and I smile and purr.  I love.  I am lucky.  I am happy.

February 6th-8th

A whirl-wind weekend of music!  Friday night Ed B. and I headed to Milwaukee (where it is the actual 80’s) to see Red Knife Lottery.  Short Shorts plays guitar and Tee-Hanson piano and guitar.  It was pretty friggin’ sweet!  It was their first show since September but it rocked out like a bitch in heat.  The RNL is a little harder than I typically like but I am digging it.  Cartoon Jay, of the band The Bled, even got on stage and sang the last song.  He is awesome.

After that we went to this party and, while we were all there, someone knocked over the china cabinet.   Luckily it was not one of us.  All of this shitty china came falling out in slow-motion, crashing dramatically to the ground….

…so we left.

Drove back to Chi-town and got to sleep around 5am.  Woke up at 10 and got back in the car to drive to the High Five (MI) for the Proximo show at Mac’s.  Kinda piddled the day away once we got there.

The next day I got up early and went to Lansing with Ed B. before the other boys left.  We spent some time walking around Lansing as Ed B. gave me a tour of some important college events in his life.  Good times.  I turned to him as we walked down the street in front of the college…”I can’t wait until our life is like this everyday.”  I want to tour with Ed B.  Arrive at the newest city and take a few hours to explore before heading off to the rock show.  That is the future I am manifesting for myself.

We got to Mac’s a little early to take some shots for the website.  I haven’t gone through them yet but I’m pretty hopeful.  The boys played and it was awesome.  I just love this band too damn much!  After they finished we hopped back in the car and drove back to Chi-town arriving around 12:30.  Not too late but not that early.  All I can say is I am already looking forward to sleeping after work on Monday.

Still…so worth it.

RNL

PXO

TB

Update

Yesh…I am behind.  You know what?  I don’t care.  There has been much going on in the word and I can’t always get to my adorning public.  That’s right.  I know you wait on baited breath for me to update.  Here’s what’s been up.

I’ve been spending most of my time wrapped in the world of Proximo.  I’ve been working on their new website which is in process at www.proximomusic.com.  I’m doing the artistic side while my brother, The Critter, does the code stuff.  It’s actually a good duo.

If you go to the site now you can see the first banner I did.  I got real inspired by the wordle post I did before and decided to make a word cloud.  The idea is that the links will highlight when your mouse is over them.  Also, the links are the words which are horizontal.  After I finished that one we realized it was too short so I had to redo it with this final product.  Click on it to see it up close.

After that work I only have one thing to say…I am never doing another word cloud again.

The factory, which you can see on the site, was designed by my step-sister, Vampiress.  I did the little tree that’s there.  We also got a logo made.  Check it!

I’m really into it.  We got a bunch of shows booked and Ed B. and I are getting ready to order CD’s and merch.  It’s so exciting!  I keep telling Ed B. I can’t wait until we spend our lives on tour.  (I think I want to be a gypsy when I grow up!)

Well…it’s short but it’s an update.  I’m busy in Proximoland…you should be too!  Check out the show dates on their myspace.

Proximo…be a part of it.

January 28th

Had a parent at the school curse me out because their kid told someone to “Shutup Gay Boy N-word” and I told her the kid would need to go home. He…of course…did not say N-word.

It’s sad to me that in this great time that people would still use words like that with such hatred. Then I meet their parents and I understand why.

A Letter

You guys are awesome.

I know you guys hear me say that all the time and I gush about you endlessly but it’s not just because of the obvious reasons.  I have never before in my life experienced a group of people who…I’m going to stop right there.  In my head I have this image of all of you guys laughing.  All of you clenching your stomachs, eyes pushed to slits.  Snow highlights the picture, blanketing everything.  Sky clear.  The laughter turns to condensation as it hits the winter air.  It is this picture of pure happiness.

The other side of it is the talent.  I’m not even sure I can put together words to describe it so I’ll just leave it at that.

You guys are awesome.

The Weekend (January 10th and 11th)

It was reeellllaaxxiinnnggg. Started off by waking up and forcing myself to go back to sleep. I just don’t sleep in enough. Then I woke up and spent some QT with the hubbs. Finally pulling ourselves out of bed we went over the The Heartland Cafe. It’s this great little eatery right by our house that serves organic food. Not like veggie burger organic (though they have that too) but more like buffalo steak organic. Good stuff.

We go there almost every weekend (at least once) for breakfast but, due to the holiday, we had not been in a while. Walking in all the staff was like “There you guys are!” I guess they missed us in the two weeks we were gone. Then one of the waiters who happens to be our neighbor, Big Red, invited us to his B-Day party at the end of the month. His band’s going to be playing and he said he might be able to help Ed B. hook up some shows at the Red Line Tap (where the party is).

Going home we did our weekly clean. Ed B.’s been doing a great job of helping out and it has made my life so much easier. Sunday was just a fun day…our we don’t have to run day. We did….NOTHING! It felt great. I made Indian food for the first time (dot not feather). It was a coconut chicken with balsamic rice. Sure, it came in a kit and the only real cooking I had to do involved microwaving and frying up the chicken.

We just might make it…

January 5th-9th

I know this isn’t really the point but I’m behind. The work week has actually been great. The winter break really recharged me for Jordan. I’m going in earlier and staying later, feeling less stressed. Don’t have to rush t finish and then Ed B. gets to take me to work and pick me up. It’s oh-so-suburban.

Thursday was our late Holiday Party in the Learning Lab. We had to delay it because the program was canceled the day of the party due to snow. It’s amazing to watch kids so entertained and hopped up on sugar. You go home tired but satisfied.

Friday on of my afterschoolers wandered back in after being in a fight in the field. While the administration took the steps required of calling parents and such I sat with this favorite. He told me “I knew it was going to happen.” He went on to explain that he had a dream there was going to be a fight but he got confused because in his dream there was no snow. I told him to learn to trust that side of himself and not be scared of it.

I wish someone had been there to tell me that when I was his age.

January 4th

Spent the last restful day with the hubby, trying to soak in every moment of relaxation. Still disappointed about a Wiiless world. I’m actually rather ready to return to work. I miss those little jerks.

January 3rd

Spent the whole day in the house with the hubby. Woke up early and made home-made zucchini bread. That was the first recipe made from my new cookbook. Cleaned the whole house, still feeling domestic I guess. The rest of the day I hung out with Ed B. and napped, ate, snuggled and proceeded with day two. Made pulled pork sandwiches. Woke up after midnight, watched Roseanne.

I love my Dan Conner.

January 2nd

Managed to finish up the Proximo website banner. I still have some final editing to do but I like the direction I’m headed. Sam made this awesome factory for them to use. That’s the final piece of the puzzle.

I hope the Proximo boys like the website. I feel them fading. They miss each other.

Spent the whole day with the hubby. Went to Best Buy and Target in hopes of a Wii. There is a Wii and Wii Fit in my near future. I have money saved…just need to do the thing. Spent $200 on groceries instead. Even though its’ been this way for over a year it is still nice to be able to go to the store and not have to get as much as possible for 50 bucks. Moving on up!

BEST PART!
Spent about two hours on the couch with the hubby just listening to Ella’s vintage vaults collection. He played around on the iPhone while I perused my new “The Everything Guide to Living Green” with the Christmas tree twinkling nearby.

Both “Day One”s went great. I am feeling great about the new year. A fresh start is always refreshing and I am taking full advantage of this one. I feel more at home in my own life and in love than ever. There is something big coming this year…I can feel it. The universe is telling me to refocus on Ed B. and things will fall into place.

I’m not sure how I could ever lose focus on him. At the time he came into my life I promised myself I would never take for granted the ability to simply reach out and touch him because our interactions were limited. There were many times when I thought “He is the love of my life and I’m going to miss out on it.”

Somehow, in the typical whirl of life, I lost that. Now it’s back and I am more determined than ever. All of a sudden I am feeling that same emotion of falling in love with him. I use to think that was only for the beginning of relationships but the longer I am with Ed B. the more I see the depths that falling in love can have. I will never stop falling for that man.

One day I am going to write out the story of our lives and how they crossed. How that crossing changed everything about us, our lives and those in it. It’s a dramatic story with no “Once Upon a Time” but I promise you a great “Happily Ever After.”